A few updates

So here are a few updates regarding unclosed topics I've written about in previous posts. The pretty boy I was talking about in my last entry is, (sadly for him!), STRAIGHT!!! Damn metrosexuals, who do they think they are leading on gay men???

When I wrote about coming out, I mentioned that I was dying to tell one of my friends that I'm gay but just couldn't get myself to do it. Well, I finally did it! I did it this past Friday; we haven't hung out again yet so I don't know how that's going to change our friendship, but she reassured me that she was glad that I decided to have my sexuality be out there in the open. I feel pretty damn accomplished...just thinking about how when I started college I didn't picture myself coming out to anyone until I had graduated. Wow, that would've been sad. Being closeted is so damn lonely; the way I saw the future and how I planned things out for myself were really dispiriting to say the least. The images of my future that I had in my head were always characterized by some sort of alienation. I really feared being shut out and humiliated for being gay, and ironically that was what I would plan out for myself. I projected moving to Paris and never returning to the States, losing contact with my family, even losing contact with my American identity, just simply forgetting about who I was in the U.S.. But fortunately, I've become a much more confident person who isn't ashamed of being gay.

In regards to studying in France and moving to Montreal in the future, the plans are still on. Just wanted to clarify that I'm not heading to these places to get away from my life here, instead it's to strengthen my French...living abroad is just my way of taking advantage of being trilingual (Spanish is my third language)...and Montreal isn't just a bilingual city, it's a multilingual city and when I visited Montreal I really felt at home there because of that and also of course because of how gay friendly it is.